After this morning’s workout was done, and the Q & A session was scheduled to be ending, I trundled over to the pool and asked to have a word with Duane. Not only was it the right thing to do, it was a good choice, because we rarely see things the way others do and it gave me some much needed perspective.
I pretty much said what I blogged, but less coherently and with a few tears. I also told him that had I swum this morning I would have been dangerously close to one of those meetings with my orthopaedist at Emerg, and that I really don’t want to be doing that! (He agreed!!)
What I know for sure now I didn’t before:
- Two swims a day is a bad plan. But nobody can say I haven't tried ... so it's a plus even though it's a minus.
- I am even more likely to make mistakes in a group atmosphere. Perfect. And it’s not like I’m not good at making mistakes all by myself! ;-)
- I still don’t explain myself well fact to face. If only I could write everything down!
- I’m a better freestyler than I thought … because people keep mistaking me for one!
One of the things we discussed was my “if I know/understand how things will unfold; what we’re going to do; then I can plan” philosophy. In this case it is a Brilliant Plan with a Good Sized Glitch. Duane is less rigid in his workout plans than he once was. He explained that although he has something in mind in terms of type of workout he’ll be running, he does individual workouts on the fly now based on the mix of people attending the session.
He suggested that I could do half the sets. I told him I wasn’t sure I knew how. He admitted that it is particularly difficult because I was one of the fastest swimmers there, so it was natural for me to lead. If I were to offer to go second it would be easier to skip a repeat than if I were leading. But it’s hard for other people to understand you’re having trouble if you’re still swimming relatively quickly, evenly and with strength, and the other swimmers will probably still want you to lead. In this he was talking about camp but also about regular training with the team.
Now that he really understands he feels he can be more attentive. But he also said he had been really impressed with the way I was swimming. Really impressed.
I told him in view of this weekend, I would want to start with only one practice a week with the team. This disappointed him, but I think it is better to do that, continue training on my own at Plant, and build rather than do too much and derail.
There were certainly some very positive aspects to the experience:
- My fitness level deteriorated very little over the break
- In general I have pretty good stroke mechanics
- People expect me to lead and can rely on me to demonstrate
- I learned I demonstrate without fear of getting it wrong or feeling I need to get it right
- I trained myself to a competitive enough level on a low yardage program to swim with the group
- I had a lovely email from my Saturday morning lane coach thanking me for “being such a great role model”
- I impressed at least 3 members of the coaching staff and another swimmer who used to watch me swim when I was young and swimming on the same team as his children
- Despite the fact that I was having problems, my strokes didn’t deteriorate in a marked way, and my performance didn’t deteriorate enough for anyone else to notice there was a problem
- I had great conversations with PN and with Duane about Worlds (Pat is planning to compete, and talked to me about TOMS something I’ll probably blog about down the road)
- I reconnected with a couple of people I hadn’t seen in a long time and got to meet some new folks
- I didn't get all obsessive about either the scales or the bioimpedance number (possibly because nobody’s explained to me quite what it means, but I’ll take it as a plus)
So all in all I’m glad I did it. But I won’t be swiming tomorrow either …